Sooooo, let's see. First off, what's good everyone?? I know, it's been a long ass time since I've been here, but it's good to be back and I guess I have plenty I can write about now. So as everyone knows, I've been away in South Carolina doing training for the army. It's actually been the time of my life here. I've met some of the coolest people here and I only have about a month left so I am trying to meet some more while I'm here. I shipped out to basic training June 17th, and as soon as I got there, I immediately thought, "What the hell did I get myself into?" I've never experienced anyone yelling at me, rushing me like that in my life. That night had to be the worst night of my life with constant push ups, no sleep, and hardly any time to eat. Yeah, the rumors are true. You really get like 3 minutes to eat. But basic training proved to be the complete opposite of that night. I really did some things I would never do if I wasn't in the military, for example, exposing myself to gas. 30 seconds, 20 seconds, the time didn't matter to me. That was really the only thing I was worried about goin into basic training and it ended up being one of the more fun things I did. It's hilarious to see everyone coming out with the face of death, snot, spit, throwup hangin from their face. It really is a bad feeling, but I made it without dying. But yeah, Basic Training was pretty fun. Now I'm in AIT which is the school for my job in the army, and it's not bad at all. Everyone is pretty cool, and there's no drill sergeants here so we aren't getting smoked every time something is done wrong. I'm actually doing pretty good in class too. It seems like I care more about school here because I'm actually awarded if I do good. That's why I'm pushing myself here I guess. I graduate from basic training on October 29th, and I will be home that night. To everyone at home; be ready for a crazy ass weekend that weekend. Alright, I'm outta here. It's nice to keep you all updated.
P.S.: I have my phone now, so don't be scared to text me, even though it will only be after 5 everyday except the weekends.
Saturday, September 19, 2009
Monday, June 15, 2009
Transformation of Life
Damn, I've been tryin to write this now for a good 3 days, and I have to write it tonight. I can't just dip out on you all not writing a last blog. I still don't really know what I want to tie into this blog, but I do have a couple things I wanna say.
First off, on anote, I wanna say congrats to Kobe. He did his thing this year and brought number 4 home.
Next, I gotta say thanks to everyone who came out to "GI Joes and Army Hos" the other night.. That shit was pretty tight for real and I'm glad everyone came out to throw down with me one last time.. Or in some cases, throw up. Thanks to Jon Clark for having it. Couldn't have done it without you bro.
And now all I have to look forward to is leaving. And after tonight, I'm more than ready to leave. Or at least get the hell outta the house I reside in now. I'm ready to go, but I'm not at the same time. I don't wanna leave my friends. I think that's the only thing that's keeping my mind on staying here. Shit, if it wasn't for them, I would prolly just go active duty and never see crusty ass Jeffersonville again.
My life has kinda taken a turn these past few days and it was definitely unexpected. But I'm just gonna go with the flow on this one because I am clueless on what to do. Family, girls, friends. That's what my life has been lately. A little light on the family side however, but I'm not blaming anyone but myself. Of course with me leaving, I ain't exactly focused on the girl thing because I feel like I can do this just as good alone. But a girl has definitely caught my feelings and I have noticed that I really do care about her. I don't even know what it is. From the beautiful ass smile to the eyes that I could look into for days, this girl has me THINKING.
Butttttttttt, I've recently started talking to an old friend again. And it's actually really nice. I miss her of course, but who knows if things will ever be the same. Or if they will ever be allowed to be the same as they once were. We keep living our lives on this "What If?" basis and I don't wanna play that what if game. I will always love her and care for her as a person, but my mind isn't wanting to fall back in the trap that it fell in once before. I took the support of my friends to get out, and they are still here by my side and right now, that's what I need.
And since it's my last blog before I "hit it like a bong" and "split like a banana", I gotta throw out my personal shout outs to anyone that I feel I can give one right now. Here goes nothing. Pre-apologies if you're left out. I guess you should have been there a little more often before I left.
Lane Carroll- Man 7 years! It's been super real gettin to know you more this year and we both kinda came from the same spot with the whole "thorn in our side" thing. I remember pushin your ass around parkview in 8th grade. High school kinda helped us split ways a little, but senior year brought us back close, and you'll be missed bra. I never thought a dude would write me a song, but I guess that's what best friends are for. Good luck with everything dude and be ready for me when I get back.
Dylan Maschmeyer- You're filthy. I think that you've told me enough dirt these past 2 nights that I kinda keep regurgitating in my mouth. lol but nahhh you and Lane are kinda in the same boat when it comes to friendships, except me and you never really split ways. We've always kinda stayed close. Good luck at Butler and you better do something up there. (Something doesn't include sexing up anything that walks). I'm gonna miss you dog and thanks for being there.
Kasey Falkenstein- You're like my best friend, sister, girlfriend all in one THICK ass package. Haha nahh don't take that the wrong way. I can talk to you about anything and I know you will never say anything about whatever I tell you. I love you and I'm gonna miss you ALOT. Be sure to tell Aims and PK I said goodbye and I'll come visit them when I get home.
Brittney Michelle Steverson- My wifeyyyyy. Man we go back like 4 flats for real. My crazy, drunk ass dad in the drive thru, to talks on the phone ALLLLL day, we really have been through alot, and we are the epitomy of a close friendship. We kinda separated a little bit in high school, but we have recently gotten closer and I love every second of it. I'm gonna miss you wifeyyy and be ready to DD for me when I get back!! haha love youuuu.
Brooke Valentine- Brooke, I really haven't seen you all summer. It's sad, but I know you have been mucho busy so I have kinda forgiven you for it. I mean, not everyone is as cold at ball as you, and I know you're gonna do your thing next year so you better hold it down. We just met this year, but we clicked for real. You're exactly like my sister and I still think y'all came from the same people and y'all was both adopted. lol jp but I love you girl and I'm gonna miss you!
John Smedal- My lil nigga for real. I swear dog, we are bout to pull mucho cat when I get back. It's been good gettin to know you this year, and I honestly don't remember when I exactly met you, but I think it was banana protein night. lol damn I was ZOOTY ZOOTED. You are seriously the funniest dude I know, and you keep me geekin even when I'm not high? I'm gonna miss you bra and be good while I'm gone. Don't do anything I wouldn't do.
Millllllllz- Bra we are bout to be roommates when I get back. I'm hype, but you know what's up. Thanks for bullying me when I was little, so I could get a little bit of the softness out of me before I dipped out. I've prolly known you the longest out of everyone and it's been real. I'm gonna miss you smacking me in some video games too. But you better practice cause when I get back it's on. Stay up dog and keep that job so we can still get a house.
Terrence Johnson- You're seriously like my brother. Man the other day, I watched some remember the titans and me and you are kinda like Julius and Gerry. They was for real like brothers and I know you would be here for me through whatever. We've come along way and known each other a real long time. You're always welcome where I am, and I hope the same goes for me. Good luck with wherever the army takes you and I wish I could have seen you before I left cause chances are I won't see you when I'm here. But be safe man.
Alex Richey- Thanks for the inspiration in everything man. I always know that if I'm having a bad day I can go to this website alexrichey.blogspot.com and read some true wisdom. I mean you are my inspiration for starting my own blogging. Good luck at Evansville. I know you're gonna do big things bro, and I'll be ready to come throw down with you when I get home.
To save time, this one goes out to a lot of people. The Johns (Gray, Clark, Jacobs), Bary, Vic, Brandon, Higgs, Big Rob, Dara, Tony, Brittney Kestler, Taylor, Donovan, Steven, Cope, Marc, Mack, Cody Smith, Evan Carroll, and anyone else that knows I wouldn't forget them- Thanks for the good times. May the road lead you where you need to go. I hope to see you all when I get back.
Secoy- Yeah you prolly thought I forgot you, but I can't. The song was "Nobody" by Keith Sweat, just to let you know. But seriously, thanks for all the good times you've brought me senior year. I kinda wish I would have met you sooner, but I'm not complaining because I KNOW we will be close for a while. You better be good while I'm gone. No UV Blue. And I always figure stuff out so don't think I won't. I'm so glad I met you this year and I can't wait to come back and party together. You better go to school too. Can't wait for the weekly newsletters. I'll miss you Queef The Thief! (more than you'll ever know)
Suzanne Michelle- Last, and definitely not least, I debated on whether or not to put you in this but I had to since you've popped back into everything this last week. Thanks for everything. You taught me alot about love and the pain and joy that a couple can go through while they're together. I hope that you don't forget me and you know I won't forget you. I hope that a guy can come into your life and give you everything you've always wanted. I love you and good luck in everything you do.
Now that the shout outs are done, I'm gonna close this one out. You're prolly tired of reading all this ish by now so I'll let yall get back to what you was doing. Wish me luck as I make this transformation in my life. Don't forget about me. I'll see you all in the fall
First off, on a
Next, I gotta say thanks to everyone who came out to "GI Joes and Army Hos" the other night.. That shit was pretty tight for real and I'm glad everyone came out to throw down with me one last time.. Or in some cases, throw up. Thanks to Jon Clark for having it. Couldn't have done it without you bro.
And now all I have to look forward to is leaving. And after tonight, I'm more than ready to leave. Or at least get the hell outta the house I reside in now. I'm ready to go, but I'm not at the same time. I don't wanna leave my friends. I think that's the only thing that's keeping my mind on staying here. Shit, if it wasn't for them, I would prolly just go active duty and never see crusty ass Jeffersonville again.
My life has kinda taken a turn these past few days and it was definitely unexpected. But I'm just gonna go with the flow on this one because I am clueless on what to do. Family, girls, friends. That's what my life has been lately. A little light on the family side however, but I'm not blaming anyone but myself. Of course with me leaving, I ain't exactly focused on the girl thing because I feel like I can do this just as good alone. But a girl has definitely caught my feelings and I have noticed that I really do care about her. I don't even know what it is. From the beautiful ass smile to the eyes that I could look into for days, this girl has me THINKING.
Butttttttttt, I've recently started talking to an old friend again. And it's actually really nice. I miss her of course, but who knows if things will ever be the same. Or if they will ever be allowed to be the same as they once were. We keep living our lives on this "What If?" basis and I don't wanna play that what if game. I will always love her and care for her as a person, but my mind isn't wanting to fall back in the trap that it fell in once before. I took the support of my friends to get out, and they are still here by my side and right now, that's what I need.
And since it's my last blog before I "hit it like a bong" and "split like a banana", I gotta throw out my personal shout outs to anyone that I feel I can give one right now. Here goes nothing. Pre-apologies if you're left out. I guess you should have been there a little more often before I left.
Lane Carroll- Man 7 years! It's been super real gettin to know you more this year and we both kinda came from the same spot with the whole "thorn in our side" thing. I remember pushin your ass around parkview in 8th grade. High school kinda helped us split ways a little, but senior year brought us back close, and you'll be missed bra. I never thought a dude would write me a song, but I guess that's what best friends are for. Good luck with everything dude and be ready for me when I get back.
Dylan Maschmeyer- You're filthy. I think that you've told me enough dirt these past 2 nights that I kinda keep regurgitating in my mouth. lol but nahhh you and Lane are kinda in the same boat when it comes to friendships, except me and you never really split ways. We've always kinda stayed close. Good luck at Butler and you better do something up there. (Something doesn't include sexing up anything that walks). I'm gonna miss you dog and thanks for being there.
Kasey Falkenstein- You're like my best friend, sister, girlfriend all in one THICK ass package. Haha nahh don't take that the wrong way. I can talk to you about anything and I know you will never say anything about whatever I tell you. I love you and I'm gonna miss you ALOT. Be sure to tell Aims and PK I said goodbye and I'll come visit them when I get home.
Brittney Michelle Steverson- My wifeyyyyy. Man we go back like 4 flats for real. My crazy, drunk ass dad in the drive thru, to talks on the phone ALLLLL day, we really have been through alot, and we are the epitomy of a close friendship. We kinda separated a little bit in high school, but we have recently gotten closer and I love every second of it. I'm gonna miss you wifeyyy and be ready to DD for me when I get back!! haha love youuuu.
Brooke Valentine- Brooke, I really haven't seen you all summer. It's sad, but I know you have been mucho busy so I have kinda forgiven you for it. I mean, not everyone is as cold at ball as you, and I know you're gonna do your thing next year so you better hold it down. We just met this year, but we clicked for real. You're exactly like my sister and I still think y'all came from the same people and y'all was both adopted. lol jp but I love you girl and I'm gonna miss you!
John Smedal- My lil nigga for real. I swear dog, we are bout to pull mucho cat when I get back. It's been good gettin to know you this year, and I honestly don't remember when I exactly met you, but I think it was banana protein night. lol damn I was ZOOTY ZOOTED. You are seriously the funniest dude I know, and you keep me geekin even when I'm not high? I'm gonna miss you bra and be good while I'm gone. Don't do anything I wouldn't do.
Millllllllz- Bra we are bout to be roommates when I get back. I'm hype, but you know what's up. Thanks for bullying me when I was little, so I could get a little bit of the softness out of me before I dipped out. I've prolly known you the longest out of everyone and it's been real. I'm gonna miss you smacking me in some video games too. But you better practice cause when I get back it's on. Stay up dog and keep that job so we can still get a house.
Terrence Johnson- You're seriously like my brother. Man the other day, I watched some remember the titans and me and you are kinda like Julius and Gerry. They was for real like brothers and I know you would be here for me through whatever. We've come along way and known each other a real long time. You're always welcome where I am, and I hope the same goes for me. Good luck with wherever the army takes you and I wish I could have seen you before I left cause chances are I won't see you when I'm here. But be safe man.
Alex Richey- Thanks for the inspiration in everything man. I always know that if I'm having a bad day I can go to this website alexrichey.blogspot.com and read some true wisdom. I mean you are my inspiration for starting my own blogging. Good luck at Evansville. I know you're gonna do big things bro, and I'll be ready to come throw down with you when I get home.
To save time, this one goes out to a lot of people. The Johns (Gray, Clark, Jacobs), Bary, Vic, Brandon, Higgs, Big Rob, Dara, Tony, Brittney Kestler, Taylor, Donovan, Steven, Cope, Marc, Mack, Cody Smith, Evan Carroll, and anyone else that knows I wouldn't forget them- Thanks for the good times. May the road lead you where you need to go. I hope to see you all when I get back.
Secoy- Yeah you prolly thought I forgot you, but I can't. The song was "Nobody" by Keith Sweat, just to let you know. But seriously, thanks for all the good times you've brought me senior year. I kinda wish I would have met you sooner, but I'm not complaining because I KNOW we will be close for a while. You better be good while I'm gone. No UV Blue. And I always figure stuff out so don't think I won't. I'm so glad I met you this year and I can't wait to come back and party together. You better go to school too. Can't wait for the weekly newsletters. I'll miss you Queef The Thief! (more than you'll ever know)
Suzanne Michelle- Last, and definitely not least, I debated on whether or not to put you in this but I had to since you've popped back into everything this last week. Thanks for everything. You taught me alot about love and the pain and joy that a couple can go through while they're together. I hope that you don't forget me and you know I won't forget you. I hope that a guy can come into your life and give you everything you've always wanted. I love you and good luck in everything you do.
Now that the shout outs are done, I'm gonna close this one out. You're prolly tired of reading all this ish by now so I'll let yall get back to what you was doing. Wish me luck as I make this transformation in my life. Don't forget about me. I'll see you all in the fall
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Becoming Comfortable with the Unknown
You all remember the saying, "Don't talk to strangers?" Come on, think real hard. You only heard it a thousand times from aunts, uncles, cousin, grandmas, etc. It's a pretty relevant generalization. But think with me now. Doesn't every "friend" start out as a stranger. A human being is birthed into the world knowing 1 person, 2 if they're lucky. Mom and Dad. The nurse and doctor delivering your ass, is a stranger. How many people have actually broken the, "don't talk to strangers" rule and still continue to do it today?? I fall under this category.
As my departure is ever so close to arrival, I realize that I am going to a land full of strangers. Strangers that are brave and valient enough to put their life on the line to serve their country. Yes that's right, for those "strangers" reading this blog, I leave for basic training for the US Army in 7 days. But I have to thank my "best stranger", Terrence Johnson for helping me make this decision. Of course, I wouldn't have been allowed to do it with the one person I knew the best, my mom, but he made me realize that it would be in my best interest to do something good for, not only myself, but my country as well.
The point of this post is to help people do something different. We all meet new strangers everyday, but do something with that stranger. That stranger can be one of the best people to ever come into your life. I met a stranger in January 2008, and she honestly was my favorite stranger to meet. Everything about her seemed so perfect, so I got the chance to know her. We clicked. Then comes the saying, "All good things come to an end," but I don't want to teach you all too much in today's lesson. I'll save that for another time.
I've taken the time to meet so many strangers this year, and I enjoy all of the support that you all have given me. To my great friends: Lane, Dylan, Brooke, Millz, Kasey, Secoy, Wifey, Lil Smedal. Thanks for everything. Much love was given to me from you 8 strangers, and I probably wouldn't be as strong as I am, if it wasn't for you all.
As I wrap this up, I can't say thank you enough, to myself. I worked hard for everything I have. If you all think, "why does he keep thanking himself? Is he cocky/conceited?", Nahh I ain't. I've learned to love myself ABOVE all others because that person that you think may appreciate you the most, is also capable of hurting you the most because you let them. Just as my former "favorite" stranger did to me.
*M. Callis*
As my departure is ever so close to arrival, I realize that I am going to a land full of strangers. Strangers that are brave and valient enough to put their life on the line to serve their country. Yes that's right, for those "strangers" reading this blog, I leave for basic training for the US Army in 7 days. But I have to thank my "best stranger", Terrence Johnson for helping me make this decision. Of course, I wouldn't have been allowed to do it with the one person I knew the best, my mom, but he made me realize that it would be in my best interest to do something good for, not only myself, but my country as well.
The point of this post is to help people do something different. We all meet new strangers everyday, but do something with that stranger. That stranger can be one of the best people to ever come into your life. I met a stranger in January 2008, and she honestly was my favorite stranger to meet. Everything about her seemed so perfect, so I got the chance to know her. We clicked. Then comes the saying, "All good things come to an end," but I don't want to teach you all too much in today's lesson. I'll save that for another time.
I've taken the time to meet so many strangers this year, and I enjoy all of the support that you all have given me. To my great friends: Lane, Dylan, Brooke, Millz, Kasey, Secoy, Wifey, Lil Smedal. Thanks for everything. Much love was given to me from you 8 strangers, and I probably wouldn't be as strong as I am, if it wasn't for you all.
As I wrap this up, I can't say thank you enough, to myself. I worked hard for everything I have. If you all think, "why does he keep thanking himself? Is he cocky/conceited?", Nahh I ain't. I've learned to love myself ABOVE all others because that person that you think may appreciate you the most, is also capable of hurting you the most because you let them. Just as my former "favorite" stranger did to me.
*M. Callis*
Monday, June 8, 2009
One of Those Days Labeled Plain
Back at it again, as you can see, and it came alot sooner than I had expected. I don't know if I'm very good at this blogging, but it helps me, so if you don't like it, fuck you. It seems like everyone is only looking out for themselves most of the time anyways. Some don't care what people have to say unless it benefits them, and the others just act like they care so you can feel like you're making them happy and not sounding like a jackass.
Today is Monday, the 8th. I have 9 days left as a civilian. My countdown is still moving right along and I still don't know what to feel. Today is my last chance to see my older sister as she boards her plane back home in 4 hours. It's actually really nice to see her more than once a year, but it would still be alot better if I could see her whenever I liked to. It was nice of her to come here for a change because she hates Indiana. Don't we all hate Indiana though?
Today I feel like........ idk. I'm kinda stressed with everything. I really want my car to get fixed, but it doesn't seem like it's gonna happen before I leave for basic training which means my last great memory of me in my car could be it rolling down a hill. Boosh. Then there's the fact that I am trying to get everyone together one time so we can take a road trip and do something fun. Not only can we not go to cedar point like I had planned, some of the people that I want to go the most tomorrow can't go for various reasons. Boosh. I have this tight ass going away party in mind for Saturday with nowhere (for sure) to have it. Boosh. At least I still have some of the dope friends that make you have a good day, even when you're having a bad day. If that's possible?
My graduation hits me a little more and more each day. I think it's because I keep lookin at all these pictures from it. A picture is so much more than a memory. It is a moment in time where everything seems to be going your way, and you capture it because it is something that you would like to keep. You never forget the people and the places you take pictures because you see them all the time. I should start carrying a camera around with me for these next 9 days, because I feel like there will be plenty of "memories" made with the people I adore the most.
Not much more to say. I hope some shit starts happening at night while I'm here cause I can't sit in this damn house and think about leaving. It makes me think about what bad can happen while I'm gone. Not only to me, but to you.
Until next time.
*M. Callis*
Today is Monday, the 8th. I have 9 days left as a civilian. My countdown is still moving right along and I still don't know what to feel. Today is my last chance to see my older sister as she boards her plane back home in 4 hours. It's actually really nice to see her more than once a year, but it would still be alot better if I could see her whenever I liked to. It was nice of her to come here for a change because she hates Indiana. Don't we all hate Indiana though?
Today I feel like........ idk. I'm kinda stressed with everything. I really want my car to get fixed, but it doesn't seem like it's gonna happen before I leave for basic training which means my last great memory of me in my car could be it rolling down a hill. Boosh. Then there's the fact that I am trying to get everyone together one time so we can take a road trip and do something fun. Not only can we not go to cedar point like I had planned, some of the people that I want to go the most tomorrow can't go for various reasons. Boosh. I have this tight ass going away party in mind for Saturday with nowhere (for sure) to have it. Boosh. At least I still have some of the dope friends that make you have a good day, even when you're having a bad day. If that's possible?
My graduation hits me a little more and more each day. I think it's because I keep lookin at all these pictures from it. A picture is so much more than a memory. It is a moment in time where everything seems to be going your way, and you capture it because it is something that you would like to keep. You never forget the people and the places you take pictures because you see them all the time. I should start carrying a camera around with me for these next 9 days, because I feel like there will be plenty of "memories" made with the people I adore the most.
Not much more to say. I hope some shit starts happening at night while I'm here cause I can't sit in this damn house and think about leaving. It makes me think about what bad can happen while I'm gone. Not only to me, but to you.
Until next time.
*M. Callis*
Sunday, June 7, 2009
The End to a New Beginning..
So I first off wanna throw a shout to 2 people: Aaron Valentine and Alex Richey. They provided me the opportunity to read their blogs and their words for real hit me and made me see that I can express my feelings through my words.
I felt the need to express my feelings because my life is going through so much right now and I should take the time to keep you all posted on where I am in life and how I feel. In the past month, I've started to realize that I'm pretty much a grown adult now. Yeah, I may still have child-like tendencies in me, but who doesn't?
I don't think that my graduation has fully set in yet. I still hope to see everyone every once in a while, well at least my good friends that I associated myself with everyday. But I don't get the whole summer to socialize. I'm starting early. I start in 10 days. When I arrive to Ft. Jackson, SC, my life and my career is officially starting. I chose to serve my country in the United States Army, and I haven't regretted my decision to this day. I think that I will do a great job serving and I thank Terrence Johnson for that because without him, I would never have had the courage to do such a brave thing.
To all my friends and family members, I wanna say thanks. I know I have caused everyone some kind of heartache of some sort, but I have always tried my hardest to make all of you proud. I will truly miss everyone while I'm away.
To myself, I wanna thank you for the hard work and determination you have showed. It wasn't always easy for you, but you gave 110% at everything, and your success will show, soon. Let the road take you where you need to go. Keep your head held high, and everything can always be worse.
Until next time.
M. Callis
I felt the need to express my feelings because my life is going through so much right now and I should take the time to keep you all posted on where I am in life and how I feel. In the past month, I've started to realize that I'm pretty much a grown adult now. Yeah, I may still have child-like tendencies in me, but who doesn't?
I don't think that my graduation has fully set in yet. I still hope to see everyone every once in a while, well at least my good friends that I associated myself with everyday. But I don't get the whole summer to socialize. I'm starting early. I start in 10 days. When I arrive to Ft. Jackson, SC, my life and my career is officially starting. I chose to serve my country in the United States Army, and I haven't regretted my decision to this day. I think that I will do a great job serving and I thank Terrence Johnson for that because without him, I would never have had the courage to do such a brave thing.
To all my friends and family members, I wanna say thanks. I know I have caused everyone some kind of heartache of some sort, but I have always tried my hardest to make all of you proud. I will truly miss everyone while I'm away.
To myself, I wanna thank you for the hard work and determination you have showed. It wasn't always easy for you, but you gave 110% at everything, and your success will show, soon. Let the road take you where you need to go. Keep your head held high, and everything can always be worse.
Until next time.
M. Callis
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